This post was inspired by my teacher Nova Ren Suma who recently blogged about what it means to be a girl, and a woman, and a female with ambition. You can find that post here.
In this post, Nova says that she has only one thing in her life, and she's completely happy with it: writing. She talks about all the things she doesn't have and doesn't really even care to have in her life, because with the writing there is no room. And I read this, with a bit of jealousy at first. Because if I didn't have other things in my life, I could get so much more writing done--and not just quantity but improve quality too. Then I read on as the things she didn't care to have got more personal, and I thought well I have other things in my life, but they're good. I want them. I don't want to give up some of the things that consume time. I have an awesome husband and a beautiful baby, and I can't always make it to workshops I want to go to, or squeeze enough writing time out of the day because I have other commitments. But it's a small sacrifice when I consider the amount of joy my family gives me.
So I originally planned this post thinking well, I have other things in my life, but it's okay. It's a trade off I'm happy to make. THEN I GOT STUCK--sinking in quicksand kind of stuck--WTH was I thinking when I started this manuscript kind of stuck? How am I ever going to get published. Then I got a request for FURTHER revisions. So, I'm passionate about writing, but it's sinking me on one side, and striking me from the other.
Then I realized I have other things in my life, my family, a part-time job, this blog, because some days I need NOT to write with the same amount of urgency that I need TO write other days. If I didn't have these things in my life, I'd die an artists death. Thank God I have these other things in my life even they often--and in the case of my family, always--come before my art. It may take me longer to get where I want to go, because sometimes I have a tough balancing act, but I wouldn't have it any other way. The other things I have in my life are amazing just as an amazing as the writing.
I need more than one thing in my life. Emil and Emily I love you ;).
(But this should not be taken to mean I think everyone needs more than one thing in their life. I do).