Today is a good day for this post, because believe me I'm feeling insecure. I think I've recently came to the decision to self publish my YA novel Phantom Fires. It's so scary. Lots of people have read it by now. It's been through 7 rounds of revisions and 180 pages of cuts. About half of the people love it, and half want it to be something it's not. I think it's pretty much a given half the reviews will love it, and half the reviews will hate it for not being something it's not. I guess the good thing is no one feels middle of the road about it? LOL I don't know.
I love my story. I worked hard on it and I'm not giving up on it. I think if I were willing to make some major plot changes I could go the traditional route. I've been told as much. But I'm not willing to. I'm not just not. If I do that, it's a different story. And I wrote the story I want to tell. I think if it isn't the story someone wants to read they can give me a one star review on goodreads and move on. That being said, with the stigma against self publishing, and the inability to reach bookstore and library markets it's still a terrifying thing. I hired a freelance editor because I just think a professional should edit something before it's published. And before it's over, I'll hire a cover artist and a book formatter. It's not a small investment, and I'm okay with that because I love it. And I don't love being told what to write, but I just hope it goes over well.